Pakistan’s left arm fast bowler, who is currently in England for the first time after the infamous spot fixing scandal, said in an interview with Mike Atherton that he once feared about never playing international cricket once again.
Amir was part of the spot-fixing scandal along with Salman Butt and Mohammad Asif and the trio was subsequently banned by the authorities. Amir said that life at that point in time was tough and he was extremely depressed about the situation.
“Life was very tough and there were times I thought I might not be able to play again,” said Amir in an interview with Sky Sports. “I didn’t pick up a ball for three years.
“It was very depressing for me, because as a professional, it’s very difficult when you can’t use the facilities, play cricket, you can’t even touch the ball, so what are you going to do then?
“They are terrible memories, but now they are helping me because I’ve learned a lot and I want to be a better human being, and a better behaved cricketer.
“I am still learning. Nobody can be Mr Perfect. But the past is the past and I’m looking forward now. I want to be the best cricketer I can be for my country. If I work hard, the main aim for me is to be the world’s best bowler.
“It’s very special for me to be representing my country again and at the same place which it ended; same team, same crowd. I think for me it’s a miracle, but dreams come true.”
Amir will be back at Lord’s where he had bad memories about the spot-fixing scandal but he is committed about making some good ones for the future and hopefully get his name on the honors board once again like in 2010.
“Lord’s is a very special place, I have good and bad memories but now I hope to make more good memories for the future. I want to put my name on the honours board, like in 2010.
“Everybody has the right to their own opinion, and the crowd has the right to say some things, but my aim is to do well and behave. If I perform, hopefully they will forgive me and they will shout for me one day.
“England are a good team, and especially in home conditions they are very good, but we will work hard and try to beat them.